Im currently playing on a high level select team and this is my 3rd year playing select and 6th year overall. This year, I made my first choice team and ever since the beginning of the season in August, I would be scared to death of going to practice, heart racing and terrified of disappointing the head coach. During winter i became very close with everyone on the team but the head coach, he always intimidated me. When tournaments started I was never put into the field unless I was pitching (2nd string), and Ive also played 1st in the field for 2 full games and maybe 1 inning every 3 games. I would always hit weather it be DP or EP. Im to the point where I am terrified to play in the field because i feel like I dont belong. The stress of it all is taking a toll on me and making me not even want to be put in at all. I used to have the best confidence and pick everyone else up. Now, im scared to throw an inside pitch or even be put at 1st which has been my main position for 3 years. With all this going on, ive considered not playing next year. How its just a game (which is what my coach says), and I shouldnt be playing if im not having fun. My parents are aware and dont want me to regret it later in life. Im planning on not playing in college and I do not play school ball. Every day is different, I cant imagine not playing but at the same time im so done with being scared of messing up and going to practice. I just want someone to tell me if I would be making the right move deciding not to play, My mom mentioned to move down and play for a higher Level A rec team, saying how that would be alot less stress and time. Would that be a good move? Please let me know and help me decide!
Thanks,
Bri, 2nd year 14u Pitcher/1st basemen.
Thanks,
Bri, 2nd year 14u Pitcher/1st basemen.